I am sitting in front of my white compaq (HP) laptop posting again.
After looking at the reply Miss Teo post, it really struck me.
It is the time to bark up, wake up, pull up my socks, face the reality that I am... weak.
It is no harm anyway, I share look really in depth into my problems.
Woke up really late this morning, or I should say afternoon as it is already 2.

Just went to face book to check out what's new when I saw this note posted out by my primary school peer.
She a pretty expressive lady, and her note was regarding a perfect boyfriend which I do agree with her, it's pretty impossible to find.
But the way she answered the questions, the answers are really hilarious.
I toppled onto the ground and went rounds upon seeing this reply, "if he's not faithful, i will make it a castrato"
That really sound like some pervert who's a guy crazy despo. (no offence)

I think I am going to flunk my common test as usual.
Interpreted the questions wrongly, don't understand a single word from the Malay text.
Worst, teacher went through the questions right on the spot.
My heart really sank.
I wonder why, but mdm baya did brought up that phrase "Zheng Xiong is okay, see how he improved during the duration between the CT2 and EOY last year"
That was pretty encouraging.
Sometimes it's not something you can control or make decisions about.
Imagine sitting for Malay paper, that's really something you can't control.

It's okay, I always tell myself, they are life skills you have to master, not the hard facts you have to memorise.
It's the stupid, arrogant, incapable and always likes to build castle in the air kind of people you have to ignore (or give them a good scolding to just make them wake up but who are they anyway?) and to treat those who gave you a pull and made you a better person, great.

"Though both of us maybe in the relation of "ai mei"
But just bear with it, the time will come where I can announce to the whole world that you are my darling." adopted from anonymous remarks.

Time to watch the news, input time ;)

An evening at T3. These pictures taken by me.

I know they are great. Just some comments.

She's cute, adorable and whatever it's that make you wanna say"OMG, you are so cute."

RHD part 1

RHD part 2

WARNING: some parts of the video might not be suitable mirrors, so children are advise to watch the video under the supervision of an adult.

This video is a video i took long ago, when I was at the East Coast.

I found the drifting quite interesting new so I took it down.

Hope you guys like it too.

Alright basically gonna post again.
I don't know what's happening, people just do not believe that what i am saying is true. I really think common trust is really extremely important. Why do we need trust, how do we see trust, why is it present. Why can't we just live without it ? We need trust. Trust is like a bridge from one being to another. If we do not travel, think communicate along the same bridge, how can achieve the link that's within, how can be truly understand what other beings are thinking ? For example, I say I miss you , I say i love you but you treat it as a joke, that's obviously no trust. This could bring about two possible outcome. one, if the person doesn't want the opposite party to learn the fact that he/she fancies him/her, then great, he/she doesn't know. But on the other hand if it's the other way round, then the fellow must be darn heart broken; I made it so obvious and you treat it as a joke, wa pain man !
How do you see trust ? Good question, actually put it in a more proper form trust is a form of potential energy that you feel. You might ask what exactly is the feel of the feel. To different people, it varies. Your sense of trust might be, warm, the warm people gives you. But my trust might be sweet, the sweetness. To me trust is not something you can talk about. Recently I just realise a new form of trust. I look into her eyes, it really tells a million stories. Shinning like a jem, as powerful as some weapon. I can't really describe the feeling but it gives some sense of security, maybe that's trust. I don't know is it the other way round too.
Some times, it takes a harder route to get to goal, if you are lucky, it's soomther.
I have been through this too many times already.

Post time. today my team grab a trophey back to riverside NPCC unit.
my phone rang, oh it's the alarm, pretty excited already the night before.
Turned in at 2.30am.
got everything ready, i embarked on the journey to woodlands MRT control station.
I was thinking, it's time for back, CSS.
We got trashed really hard by them the year before but we managed to keep a 3rd.
When we were there, the atmosphere weren't really there yet.
There were only 3 teams.
I could see the disppointment in the organiser's reflection.
"i though tere would be like 10 or more units coming but nevermind let's carry on with the breifing"
I think that some of the cadets from other unit are not showing the respect they are supposed to show.
Yes respect is earned but as long as you are the junior, you jolly well show that respect,
which you need to show just because you are a junior.
someone, who knows less, who's still inexperience, who's just someone who need to learn.
Alright 1st game, against marsiling. riverside 5, marsiling 3.
It really a WARM-UP ROUND !
We nearly lost the match.
They were strong i agareed, I wanted to give up but i told myself, for my unit, for team-mate, for glory,
I carried on.
On the second half of the first match, I think it's because of a lack of strategy
we lost a lot and the other team managed to catch up abit.
finally the match ended, phew, we actually won.
the match which my team feared the most was the one against fuchun.
fortunately, we took them down with the score of 8 to 0.

i think in competition, in life, there will be lose and win.
if we win okay thta's great but if we lose..
i would prefer to lose cause, it's a kind of challenge.
one that you hate to face but you have to overcome.
some people might result to more violent and negative mehtod
but some you can do it the other way round.