It's been long since I last posted.

I thought it wasn't a good idea to spend time on blogging, owing to the fact that I have hectic schedule.

But I was wrong, my expressions need a place to let go, my mind need a little rest.

I held back my tears, every time some people say something to put me down.

I wouldn't deny it's not true.

But I will look at a brighter side.

I used to think that people who are optimistic, realistic coward.

Realistic are just realistic, you just have to face it.

I was wrong once again, it's not as easy as said.

It's horribly hard to accept the fact that choosing to escape would seems like a better way out.

Never have been so afraid to make mistakes

Never have I been so intimidate to try.

Never have I felt so hard to raise my head among my peers.

Never have I wanted to give up so badly.

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Yes I suck at my English.

So what ! Who are you judge my skills with the standards of yours .

If you were trying to mean to help me,

then I don't think that type of help me do any good.

Anyway the more I look at your face, the more I want to give you a tight slap.

I help because my aim in life is to help whoever who's in need,

who has the right morals,

not because you are a friend of mine.

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It's not within my means to control whether I misses someone or not.

Because of you.