Cansatdra Chris

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

11:39 PM

I feel so pain.

Never felt so bad before.

I feel so touched.

Never cried so hard before.

I feel so lousy.

Never been hurt so deep before.

I feel so lose.

Never fail to find my way before.

I feel so stressed.

Never, your words weight heavy before.

I feel so far from you.

Never before.

Your words were never too much.

Your actions were never ugly.

Your sights were never erased.

You were you.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

4:03 PM

I am in his shoe part 2.

Meet up with friends, the feeling came again.

I bluffed myself once again, I am so embarrassed.

Walking through was not easy, not like what people say.

I look strong I agree with myself, but who knows what's inside.

It's seriously damage, your sight added salt to the wound mercilessly.

That was painful indeed, I don't want you to experience it, though you will.

You wasn't waving at me, was you ?

You looked normal, but why am I having an internal struggle ?

The drink, fries burger was tasteless, the smile on my face was fake.

On the surface, I rejected the KTV detour, actually I am most willing.

James 's fame is so superb, when could it be my turn.

Nothing could be harder then turning the game around.

You... ...

Squad ! Keluar Baris !

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

9:28 PM

I am in his shoe.

"Why ? Why is it me, this is only my first time, why shatter my dreams

Please turn back, I can improve, better than him.

I can change to the guy you like.

Can you take back your words ?

You hurt me, really you do.

Didn't you said i stand a chance, didn't you ?

Why, why, why ?

I am crying when you turn back.

I said i have got sand in my eyes when i look into your eyes.

Say i can be your man,

say you do love me for that second,

don't make me feel the pain,

I don't want to gain,

Think, of you... aches

Squad ! Keluar Baris !

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

9:45 PM

The fire started to burn, as expected, it a BBQ.

What had happened was not what I expected.

Everything went so well, why was the last part spoiled.

I was pretty disappointed, with what happened.

Why did this happened ?

I smile upon your arrival.

You are the sweetheart of this evening.

You made me emo, as I kept the stone jumping in the water.

Every step of mine, kept the letters of your name going.

From what I know about you, aches me.

But your innocents still keeps me there for you.

You are so close to me, yet we are not close at all.

I am just the man, that's just Zheng Xiong.

The Majiong player who only receive NPCC proficiency badge, Dai Ti.

I shall keep this piece, just a little deeper to myself.

I know myself well,

Squad keluar baris !

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

10:29 PM

How to love ?

Who to love?

When to love ?

These questions have been racing through my mind for a pretty long time.

I shall start my tutorial now.

How to love ?

Love wholeheartedly without holding back, that's being dumb.

Love someone who you "loved".

Do you think he/her really loved you, willing to go through times with you ?

Try this when both of you are in love, do something which can prove that your love really love you.

How much you love someone don't reflect from the words you say, is what you do.

Who to love ?

You think who you "love" is who you should love.

You think who you love is the one who pays for your bill, be by your side

teach you, educate you.

Why try think of how to make someone who doesn't have loved you happy

when you can easily make the one who have loved you from the very first, happy.

Love people like your parents, they deserve it.

When to love ?

When you have loved and make the people deserved to be, happy.

When you are able to love yourself.

When you are sure you mean what you mean.

You are ready then.

There's no point saying who love who and whatsoever.

Childish.

Love from the bottom of the heart.

Truly and purely love.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

6:14 PM

This song is specially dedicated to P.S Chew !

今天是你的生日

收到礼物无数次

我想送你一份礼物

来弥补我以往的错误

你是今天的焦点人物

围绕在众人群里，我一边望着你，一边哭

怎么了，不应该开心的吗?

我是傻瓜

Chorus
生日快乐

你我也完了

回忆依然存在着

你选者放弃了

生日快乐

爱你不能公开了

距离虽长了

爱你的我依然在那巷口等待着

这么多这么多的今天

都没有当年那么甜

望着你送我的那条链

盼着一天你能回到我身边

这一切都沉了

Chorus

你一不是我的人

这首歌时给我爱的人

我已无法忍

看着你和别人

但那人不是我

我哭过

试着挽回过

但这已太迟了

Chorus

这首歌时给我爱的人

生日快乐。。。

Monday, November 10, 2008

10:15 PM

MISS LAU

起初是个浪子
对爱只有那么一点知
是你让我开始
对它有更深的了解
那时你更像我姐
可以说是林老我们绑了结
不可思议的我爱上了姐
在印象中，你有喜欢我？
那已经在我脑后
渐渐开始欣赏周董的歌喉

Chorus
记得爱过
记得笑过
记得哭过
记得想念你时怎么过
这是魅力，是我闯出来祸
就让我自己过

看人一个一个爱上你，只有苦字
我对你是一人坚持
就是为了爱字
又一次
你想尝试
我的心像被刀刺
每人知那种无奈
我无怨无悔的忍耐，等待
但盼不到你温柔的对待

Chorus x2

经过你楼下
还是会望上去你家。。。

1:29 PM

Stop making the loudest noise I ever hate !

Make noise whenever and wherever as and when you like.

I am really sick of such atmosphere and environment.

Scoldings, yelling, hot tantrum & whatever.

I am sick and tired !

Give me a break, please.

Put a stop to it.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

7:02 PM

I am gotta be harsh with my language.
The camp was seriously not up to expectation.
Programme not well organized, lengthy and boring.
CI s kept on exercising their throat muscle like gotta fight for any voice competition.
Most of them were meaningless cause they were repeated for lot of times,
sounded like barking, in another words.
During the campfire, the CI s face became so damn funny,
I laughed right in his face,
he looked at me, so i decided to "cry" instead,
bend my body down, try to act as sad as possible.
In the end my stomach was cramp up.
Was pretty fun anyway.
One more thing, when the MDM declare the closing of campfire though there will be surprise,
like extinguishing the fire with an extinguisher,
but in the end another boring ending.
Everything went on pretty well with the joking atmosphere.
Since there's nothing good about the camp then let's joke about the surrounding then.
On the way back start to crap with sherrinya.
Sorry if i got your name spelt wrongly.
Start to talk about how many troops i have armed in Ubin.
How many commandos i have in the bush.
How many helicopter patrolling in the air.
And all sort of nonsense, thanks anyway for playing along.
Lastly this cheer is to dedicate to all member, CI of group 5 [ISB]
Flea !
Flea fly !
Flea fly superman !
Batman !
Superman, batman don't forget the iron man !
Oh no more underpants for superman !
On the way to save people when I hit a building !
Arrrrr, so pain.

The memories and happiness share remain in us as we move on.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

5:55 PM

Gotta report for camp the next morning.

Frankly speaking quite excited with everything that's packed.

Tomorrow's my birthday too, how great, I like it.

Hope something surprising will happen tomorrow.

I am all alone in Singapore.

People watching movies, having fun, leaving me out.

I would like to pour what I wanna pour out,

But consequences are there, out there.

After the camp, gotta explore Singapore, all by myself.

Will drop by Malaysia for a month, if possible.

That's the day itself.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

12:57 PM

Have been drowning myself with Jay's song this few days.
They are great, not only the music but the meaning.
In all way it impact me, from heart to brain.
From touched, to sad and to "WOW" !
Hope I could have half of Jay's talent,
as so, I can sing all my numbness out.
Friends?
Family? Not wanting them to worry.
I am on my own, through the cold turkey.
I am not as knowledgeable as seemed.
I see things at a clearer perception, maybe.
Or have I been through more than others.
I forgot how to cry, or should I say I have immune.
People say I am EMO, I think I have did my best.
People say I need 5 years, how long can I stand.
Jay stop singing, they make it worst.
For whatever it takes I will do it.
A love addict.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

11:13 PM

Cherie's finally back, didn't know she 's back today.
She definitely had fun, I suppose, from the pictures.
I saw one of alaric's comment on Yishen's tagboard.
That was talking about some of love theory.
It gives me the urge to blog something which I wanna, blog.
Think about it, what's love.
Something you can measure, like the love you give me is not enough ?

I think, love is something sweet, great and overwhelm everything.

What makes it sad, when its being make negative.

Love when you are willing to sacrifice for the other party no matter any circumstances.

Love is great when you make it great.

Happy is when you think, make things happy.

Love the one you love there's nothing wrong, seriously nothing wrong.

Why give up?

Give yourself and others a chance.

You know it feels, don't you.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

8:45 PM

Everything was just like this.

Was trying out new font.

Quite pleased with this, there you go, ARIAL.

Before I start my mind blogging phrase.

Close your eyes.

Okay here i go.

From the competition, from everything.

The start, the end, the every part of it.

Its like, close your eyes and let the tears fall.

I was thinking why waste, they don't worth it.

Don't ever wish the car will move without the petrol.

You are just pouring the oil all over the car.

By doing what you are doing.

You are just lighting up the car.

Count yourself as friends, yes indeed.

I can tell you right in your face, you are.

Believe, you are, sorry.

If everything can be solved by sorry then, it wouldn't just worth that price.

Tell me how in need I am to you, CRAP!

BUZZ off.