I realised that I am perfectly fine without you

ironically even better without you.

I enjoy the freedom of not being tied down, or anchored to some stupid things.

I felt retarded to just look at things in the frame. I should have gotten out of it earlier.

I used to view things in the way that you don't care for me, you don't like me.

But now, I will just conclude things with the fact that you just don't value me as much.

Coming to think of it, why should i even linger on at the first place.

I am perfectly alright, now, and I believe I will not be affected in future, as well.

I do hope that she can find someone who she really has feelings for.

Talking about school today

I woke up at 8.12 AM in the morning realising that I am superbly late for my tour.

I rushed down to Ngee Ann in a cab just to make it in time for the tour.

In the end I spent a total of $18.35.

I could better spend it in other areas

I messed it up man.

I ran like mad around the campus just to look for my group, I was still kinda late after all.

Okay the tour goes like this,

We have to leave all light emitting devices and valuables into a locker.

Thereafter we did some warm-up exercise.

We have to pair up, one would be blind-folded and the other will instruct the other to draw a given image.

It seemed kinda of easy but, the end product was terrible.

Then we were asked to enter this really really dark room,

you can hardly see a thing, even if you think you can see in the dark

you can't

I shall not carry on with what you will experience in there because words can't describe what was felt.

I just came to the conclusion that visually disabled people aren't weak, in fact they strong, emotionally stronger.

Do drop by Ngee Ann for this brand new and unique experience.

It's called dialogue in the dark, located at block 5.

It's worthy to be blinded for an hour.

Went prawning yesterday.
Have lot of superficial fun, not real at all.
I thought I was alright with everything, even seeing her, I won't be reminded of the memories.
I was kinda wrong, cause the moment I saw her, everything just came back.
I tried not to look at her, distance from her.
It helped but not for long.
She asked me why didn't i prawned, I didn't know how to reply.
I just put the question off with a reluctant reply "I just don't wanna prawn"
Prawning just bring back so much bad memories.
When I am waiting for the prawns, and her text comes in.
I just feel so lousy, it has been so long, and yet she's not moved.

Hopefully I can really forget her, I want to.
she asked me whether will I still join in for future outings. I said yes
But most likely I will exclude myself from it simply by coming up with reasons like I am busy.