React.Late

Wednesday, August 5, 2009, 5:26 PM

Gonna post again.

The type of feeling is back again.

The agony of no courage, just couldn't get things right.

I don't know about what's going on, she's becoming like someone I like.

Which mean, in future, it will be harder to converse with her.

It doesn't matter, since I don't talk to her often, and she doesn't talk to me anyway.

No, I want to, but I don't dare.

It takes a million courage to really look into her eyes and start speaking.

There's resistance, I don't know how the hell i came out with such term but the feeling is just as such.

I can tell she avoiding me also.

I sounded like some sex maniac.

Today, I really want to join but, you know there's just something come pushing from my back as, pushing me onto the route home.

I though no one would notice; i can walk home without saying bye.

But unfortunately, that's not the case, they saw me.

I have left with no choice but to bid fare well.

At that every instance, time stopped,

I could feel my heart beat, without fail, it's still beating, but at a pretty unnormal rate.

Fast, slow, moderate, it left me in a doubt.

She looked and I didn't manage to look back after a glance upwards.

I could only stop Annie that really "unhappy" look

and nothing else.

Why is this happening , didn't i told myself to stop this kind of nonsense.

Oh dear, just stop it !

I mean it ! That's what I am reminding every time I try to do weird things like glancing over to the class opposite mine to see if she's there.

The moment the bell ring I knew it was not fate, she's not there.

I turned my head with disappointment, with my feelings already sunken to the bottom of my foot.

Get rid of the rusty coat of my body,

It's really tiring and annoying myself,

I have to move with whatever I have,

And the things I am going to impact,

I will pray, that time wouldn't as bad

As before, as how I cope with previous

relations.