Cansatdra Chris

Sunday, May 31, 2009

6:54 PM

Emo to the max !
I am so tired, but it's only 5 years.
What's wrong with 5 years.
It's 5 years of pursuit, endurance, ... nothing.
I am more than a friend, but still not there yet, so what am I ?
Best friend ?
Why is it me, i wonder sometimes.
Why not the others.
Sometimes my hope i can learn from my friend, relationship one after another.
What can I do, okay i will wait.
How many more years, i don't know.
Just wait, it's just a feeling.
If the outcome is not what I won't mind too.
Cause I had the sweetest moment before.

3:48 PM

Alright using my sis's com to do some blogging.
First of all some introduction and promoting.
It's a ASUS laptop with a very shining black as it's covering.
Though i know nothing about this notebook, at least i know it doesn't feel like so darn hot after keeping it switched on for 48 hours !
Alright, the keys are still them.
It looks dull from the outside, but the inside is absolutely superbly great.
There mean to be flaws.
When you minimize and restore the i tune or whatever player you are playing, it tend to shake the music. Which is like, acceptable.
Just to sum up, it look perfectly cool.

Okay wanna talk about the conversation had with Jia Wen last night.
Truly contented though it was shorter than before.
But it's better than have not.
The conversation just started so naturally, without thinking planning or whatever preparation you call it.
Okay will blog something on it when i am back from sending my bro to camp.

Friday, May 29, 2009

1:54 PM

A post dedicated to my fellow sec 3s.

Ever since the matter, i never seen any of you smile whole heatedly again.
Ever since i take on the role, i see no point of smiling any more.
NP was never like this to me, but this is reality.
The responsibility i have to carry.
I feel one 1 person ed.
It's hard to tell people how i feel.
Sometimes i just have to hold back my tears.
Bite my gum and say, lets move on.
Sometimes i am really afraid of doing something but for you guys, i did it.
I just cant bear to scold you guys cause, i know you guys have did your best.
The one at fault is me, cause i have not lead you guys to the correct path.
The moment i hear Boon Jian said his heart is dead for NP.
I was so freaking heart broken.
Why must someone with the capability give up on their passion, on their dream.
Doesn't mean holding high position is good.
It is whether you can excel a not.
It is whether at the end of the day people would say you have done a good job.
We might be handicap in some areas but we must make do with what we have.
People's words can put us down, but when we our look up upon ourselves,
live up to the expectation we have for ourselves, no one can look us down,
NO ONE !
NP is our dream, giving up is not our option.
We must strive.
At least at the very end, even if we don't achieve anything big,
we can say, we are once a team, we are once a squad, we once work together,
we once smile together, get scolded together, face hardship together.
Once a NP cadets TOGETHER...

My sec 3 squad.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

9:18 AM

最好的时光

总是在这样的晚上

配你散步到天亮

你的手如此冰凉

握紧后舍不得放

不常把爱挂在嘴上

却把你碰在手上

我的爱如何丈量

一辈子溪水流长

因为你我拥有最好的时光

细细品尝爱情淡淡的清香

快乐悲伤我为了你而珍藏

藏在我心上直到地久天长

我感谢你给我最好的时光

无怨无悔默默守在我身旁

这一路上多少的狂风巨浪

很乐意在你的世界做你的避风港

有人说感情像存粮时间越久越芬芳

和你一起走过的地方

还要在跟你分享

A song by 张信哲，a superb singer with a real unique voice, but most importantly, this song touches the heart.

Friday, May 15, 2009

1:42 PM

At the very last, i am able to fork out some time to spare.

Oh dear.

Took my dog for grooming, it turns out to be better than last time's.

Well done !

Alright just some description.

She looks like the Japanese lady from the channel 8, 7 PM Chinese show, shao lin warriors.

OMG, she will look great at the later part of the show, i suppose.

When she looks more Chinese and not have the two thick fringes as her side burns.

This girl gave me a pile of forms and said "give this to all the referees hah"

Wah Lao, image, you are mugging through your physics notes, when suddenly a not very sweet voice pierce through your thoughts.

Can blame her too for the inefficiency, ops shouldn't comment, will get myself in too some crisis.

But if i got to comment, that will kill myself too.

Too much flaws which is beyond words.

Alright got to.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

5:42 PM

this feeling just struck me, to blog.
have been mugging this few days.
Like what they say, tired.
time to go back, hope these disgusting period, over
get over and done with i suppose.
there after i really need a god darn break, refresh myself.
reset my goals and so, soul searching.
alright, time to go back to my no life schedule.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

9:53 PM

It has been ages since i last posted.

My brother is back, OMG he's hair is shorter than before.

The army I though was not as what my brother is experiencing.

Good, at least my brother would not be suffering.

Alright some complains.

Without him, I am having a lot of difficulties and burdens.

I am having a bloody and disgusting time doing my Math assignment.

I am having a hard time handling my sciences.

I have to think when i can just seek for his help.

But can I run to his camp and I will get shoot down like a target in practice.

I have to miss him every night, that's what i hate.

I have to look forward to his return, that's what i like

I have to sleep with him when he book out, that's what i loved.

When his armpit smell like hell.

Most importantly, i have to be independent.

Now, i am using a computer i long wanted, its screen is bigger than my head a few times.

a stupid keyboard that works only when it like.

the mouse is the same too.

alright at least i know that my other com is not spoiled yet.

at least i am not a com murderer, i was so guilty over it for so long.

okay i shall stop here for the normal post, let carry on with the emo one.

I find it harder to have a conversation with her.