Alright I am going to post wiht my lines sticked to the sides, so formal !
Today NDP training was really efficient, manage to have everything taught.
Thanks to crew and main comm.
I gotta be really frank, the Guard Of Honour are really the elite.
But intially the sluggish which made me really blow my top.
Dragging boots, arm swing, slouching, attitude all not up to standart.
The worst is, some told me, they did it on purpose.
I can't take it and this was what I shout at the top of my voice,
"I am sorry if I have to say this word, your fucked-up attitude..."
I didn't really care much, but I just wanted to get things to them straight.
I believe not only did the GOH heard it, the young little girls and boys from
Qihua Primary School should be able to hear.
It was pretty surprising and it shocked my main comms.
But after that, everything just went smooth, no more major scoldings.
I think things can don't turn out this way if they coorperate,
and this is also the first time I scold the magical words.
I might be the one always scolding, but if things don't go well, the one losing out in the end would not be me.
I like the smile, the smile which tells the hardship the GOH have been through
I like the laughter, the laughter that tells that it's time to unwind.
I like the banging, the banging that tells that it's time to get serious.
I hate the scolding when everything gets so nasty.
One more thing, I did, which disappoint myself, is one of my GOH lost their valuable.
I am really being put down by that.
Why must this kind of thing happen.
I will definitely find the stuff back, I mean it.

I really hate those people who wants to claim something which is not belongged to him/her
This is my stuff don't nose into it, want CIP hours, dream on !
My stuff will only belong to my main comm and no one esle.
can say I am selfish or whatever, i just don't want my plan to be vulnerable.
In other words to be destroyed by comments of outsider which doesn't know anything.
I have no problem with what I am doing, thank you for your concern.
mind your own business.

The lesson this moring was pretty light, in the sense that not heavy contended. The H3 period was really engaging. Once again, I come to realise that I want to become a pilot. But why did I say I want to be an aerospace engineer ? Is it for the seek of the cool-ness and wows that are brought about at the back after this title is mentioned. I really think that more and more limitations are limiting we people to realise our dream, to achieve it, to enjoy it. That's really a pity. I am surprised with Miss Tang reaction when she's suppose to be surprised. If I am her I would go around the class and huge every single one. "I though I was just a Bio teacher.. you guys... cry !!!" That's pretty impossible but at the very, that would be what I am going to do. She told us she has a friend that she only met once and will send her a birthday sms every year. This brings me to a point. I am really shamefull of myself. Everytime my friend send me anything message which should be meaningful, I would treat it... trash, just ignore it. Cherish is not the thing, unless you have lose something, or realise something. english class, as miss teo's wish I will blog about english class, no particular feelings but i think its not really an easy thing to handle a class which is alien to one. from teacher's feedback that claa is not a really easy class too. I salute you. if it was me i will shout and scream at them like no one's business.

in our lives, nothing really matters actually. It's feeling. I still could not forget the encounter at pualar terkong...