Went prawning yesterday.
Have lot of superficial fun, not real at all.
I thought I was alright with everything, even seeing her, I won't be reminded of the memories.
I was kinda wrong, cause the moment I saw her, everything just came back.
I tried not to look at her, distance from her.
It helped but not for long.
She asked me why didn't i prawned, I didn't know how to reply.
I just put the question off with a reluctant reply "I just don't wanna prawn"
Prawning just bring back so much bad memories.
When I am waiting for the prawns, and her text comes in.
I just feel so lousy, it has been so long, and yet she's not moved.

Hopefully I can really forget her, I want to.
she asked me whether will I still join in for future outings. I said yes
But most likely I will exclude myself from it simply by coming up with reasons like I am busy.