I got no idea what's going on with me.
I am just not myself after everything.
I am not performing and doing what I am supposed to.
I am getting very short tempered these days.
I flare up so easily.
Maybe it's because of the things that happened recently.
I screw up my 2nd round interview.
I went into the room, everything seemed so stern,
I couldn't express my thoughts well,
I went speechless when those questions struck me.
I am just so afraid I don't get the scholarship.
Because I just can't afford to give it a miss.
I need it really badly, given my current situation.
I suck at handling my friends.
I didn't mean to make you guys unhappy or pissed off.
I am sorry.
I need you. Can you hear me ? Jaymann can you hear me?