I force swallowed a million needles the night before.
Of course it hurts, deep down into the heart.
I am glad you actually answered.
I have no hard feelings for the answer at all..
But I just felt a little disoriented that moment I saw the reply.
So many things went through my mind, and the only question that bothered me was
why took so long a time to give me that reply,
should have done so before everything set roots.
And then I throw the question back to myself and then I found the answer.
And the answer was, I didn't initiated the question earlier.
That brought me to another conclusion that all the miseries, were brought about all by myself.
All in all I am blaming you for not having any reactions, but then i didn't realise that
that was a signal for stop.
I chose to deceive myself, and there I have myself ended in such situation.
Just to end off..
我对你的感情，会像泉涌般的山水 绵绵不断。
坐吃山空的你，必有见水干的一天。

I can't sleep
I can't close my eyes.
I can't shut my mind, off you.
I don't know why do I allow myself to be so affected by you.
you matter, you do.
I miss you, I do.
I did change, I did.
Why can't I deserve a second change ?

Just trying to be a little positive.
I recalled what my primary school teacher used to say,
be it sad/happy, the day still goes on.
Why not be happy, it's easier anyway.
So So So So So So So,
I am not gonna be so hard on myself.
TeeHeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I'm gonna accept more and question lesser.
If it's fate that the both of us are not going to come together anymore, so be it.
As long as you re' happy, fine, living well and no one's gonna get hurt anymore, then great.
I accept.
If adding a little happiness to sadness will make things better, I will.
If cutting off communication will make things better, I will remain like this.
If giving up will make things seem a little easier, I will,
consider.
TeeHee!
P.S. I'm not drunk, just a little too depressed.